Yesterday, I ended my post with this:

“Because I don’t want to do a lot of things half way- I want to do a few things well, and really get out of them everything I can. I try to cram as much as I can into every ounce of the day and then am left feeling unfulfilled despite all of my busyness. That’s not how I want to live life and it’s not how I want my kids to live life. So, I’m on a journey to change that.”

In Richard Foster’s Celebration of Discipline, the first words in the first chapter are: “Superficiality is the curse of our age.” We are a culture of instant _________ (fill in the blank- pretty much everything has some “instant” form).  This book is great because it really takes you back to why we do what we do as Christians. When I’m feeling like I’m failing at the whole “spiritual side” of my life, it’s probably because there is one giant area that I’m failing to be faithful in, whether it be prayer, meditation, going to church, etc. All of these things are disciplines of the faith.

Many times, I don’t make these things a priority in my life, and so they never get done. I get caught up in my, getting school work done, trying to do all the things I’ve committed to doing, and before I know it, it’s 10:30, I can barely stay awake, and I go to bed. The morning comes, I look for every reason to stay in bed, get up at the very last minute possible (which was about 7:45 this morning- we leave the house around 8), and start it all over again. No wonder I feel empty…I long to go back to the life I lived in my early “college days” of being single and only going to school and having hours a day to spend reading, studying, and journaling. But that isn’t my life now, that isn’t reality.

The good thing is that others have struggled with this before me and others will struggle with it after me. I’m not the only one. And of those who have struggled with it, many have figured it out. There is hope- but not in me being able to get my “to do list” checked off, but in Christ remaining faithful to me even when I don’t.

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